This house seems to get quieter and quieter each day. I miss the hum of the kids coming in and out, sitting out in the living room watching TV together, cuddling on the couch. The house is so quite tonight Kylie is at a concert, Christi is at work, Mike is asleep on the couch, so its just me and the dogs and the TV.

My heart if breaking because I cannot help my daughter and make her feel better since she is sick, her  husband is more interested in his video game than helping her. They are having car problems again and once again I am 5 hours away and have no way to help her. She is so stressed out and it worries me.

I'm so tired of my struggles at work, just wanting to have things they way they are suppose to, tired of being put in positions of not knowing what I am going to do each day. That security is unreal when the rug is pulled out from under you. Trying to have faith that it will work  out but man is it hard.

In some areas I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but in other areas it is as dark as the night with no light in sight. I'm ready for somethings to level out all over!